There are times when you just feel like giving up all your conscience and shouting out to everybody who's, in some weird way, responsible for the disturbia going on in your head ! Yeah, as if my head wasn't insane enough on its own!
Times like these, I for one, beg for being able to act without consideration..or without any consequent guilt. But sadly, as you grow up, turns out life builts in a really heavy conscience for you..you just can't allow yourself to cause hurt right, left and center. If only, the people you give it out to would repond in the same way..life would be a much simpler place to live in.
I remember how as a kid I'd once gone crying to my mum about how some friend hurt me..and she told me that its nice to have friends around but a distance is needed, just the right amount of distance that lets you pick who gets to get to your head and who doesn't. Well, I guess somewhere in my teen rebel phase I defied that very very strongly. And now its a mess.
From being somebody who really couldn't care less about how they (where they refers to anybody but family)
acted with her to somebody who can't stop brooding over  the same. And the worst bit, there's this silly feeling of guilt that comes from absolutely nowhere, but just won't leave!! And these people we're talking about..oh yeah..they's cool with it all..or maybe not. it would of course be much easier if I exchanged my stupid brooding head for a mind reader's.
From being the teenager with the most sorted out head (now thats rare!!!) to being somebody with no track of the nuances of the head's mechanics! God help me..or get me comfortably numb pink floyd..or somebody, anybody..just drive a stake right through my head!!!